the roller coaster goes up......and down

I'm having a hard time deciding what exactly to share tonight. For those of you who know me well, know that I wear my emotions on my sleeve. I would probably share more of today's events in an email with closer friends and family of course but for the sake of the blog and not knowing who reads this, I'll have to show some restraint.

The girls continue to do very well. That isn't the problem. The photolight therapy will continue for a couple of days at least. That didn't stop us from having some intimate time with the girls during another kangaroo care session for about an hour and a half and then some late night swaddling after they were measured and weighed this evening.

The problems we encountered today were with the way we were treated by the hospital. Bottom line is these last couple of days should have been a positive experience and it's not that it was negative, but it definitely wasn't positive. There are many many factors that contributed so it's not like we can pinpoint one thing and say "if only...". It all finally caught up with Lisa and I this afternoon as she was being discharged a day earlier than we expected.

I've already shared more than I intended but there are a few more things that I want to get off my chest. Right now, this website is mainly to update everyone on the status of Lisa and the girls so I don't know if right now is the best time to vent and share some of my deeper emotions. I don't know where to draw that line.

.............just know....that we had a very difficult day today emotionally.

Story time this afternoon.

Eileen holding Alyssa for the first time this evening.

Lisa and Katy bonding